KCDA的小天地

We had a huge argument with each other two days ago. I had enough of Caroline’s nagging, shouting (when the kids are being naughty), and negative thinking (that others rejects her). She had enough my impression of Mr. Perfect and not listening. She went to bed early. I felt frustrated with such conflict.

Late at night, I read about an article “8 Steps for Redeeming Your Marriage Relationship” from Family.com. It reminds me that I can change no one but myself. I should stop trying to change her to be another me. So I thought maybe I could do a few things to change myself.

For Caroline, I should go to bed by midnight, wake up by 7:30am for devotion, have breakfast with the kids, and do more chores without being asked. And most importantly, try to do what she asks right away. For the kids, I should prepare some games before any road trip. This will minimize sibling rivalry inside the car. I should also discipline the kids more (instead of letting Caroline being the mean face).

From Sunday morning until Monday night, the atmosphere changed. As I begin changing, those around me begin changing, too.

This is the real me. How can God use such a person? Can He entrust a platform to me (whatever it might be)? Today’s reminds me that it’s not about WHO I am, but WHOM sends me. As I go with the strength I have, then I’ll have nothing to brag about. Instead, I’ll need to humble myself and follow His guidance …one step at a time.